December 30, 2013

Signs of a possible pedophile

I've made a list of a possible signs of a pedophile and how he or she may groom a child. Use your own judgment and the Spirit to determine what is useful from my list. The important element from all this is that the pedophile wants to isolate the child so he or she can abuse the child.

1. He or she may have a children's mecca away from people's line of sight.

2. He or she may obsessively volunteer to babysit children.

3. He or she may "change diapers" without informing a parent, or put the child to bed alone. This also prevents others from discovering any genital damage done to a baby.

4. He or she will isolate a child physically and emotionally.

5. He or she will manipulate and subtly threaten a child.

6. He or she may give away candy or toys in a secluded place.

7. He or she may host parties where children will be secluded in some way, like sitting on Santa's lap in a low visibility area.

Often, spouses or other loved ones will sometimes collaborate or try to hide the truth.  Family members are afraid of the truth because it will change their entire world view. The abusers and family members may orchestrate situations where someone else looks guilty.

Pedophiles are expert liars and manipulators. Their goal is to look trustworthy and deflect blame onto others. Anyone can be an abuser--the jolly-looking neighbor or relative, church leader, repairman, counselor, teacher, another child, etc. Most victims know their abuser.

Follow your gut instinct and the Spirit when protecting yourself and children. Children are so vulnerable. Stay calm if a child tells you anything. Get help from someone you trust. This is such a personal journey for each person.

If I Could

Christus Statue

Eighteen years ago, my mom received a call at 9 PM from a police officer that a relative was at the police station. This relative had been attacked at a job he was starting two hours away from us. In the middle of the night, we sped in almost half the time to the police station. My relative was highly perturbed when we arrived. After the attack, he had more difficulty, which leads me to believe he had PTSD.

On the drive home that night, I plotted a story in my mind for a new novel. I wrote it during and after school at the end of my senior year. The main characters were an orphan in a foster home and his female friend. The foster boy had been attacked by a football teammate. His friend wanted to help heal him, but she didn’t know how. The story has morphed over the years and I have yet to finish it. But I wrote a poem about how hopeless the friend felt to help her friend.

I realize that my teenage mind was processing how I felt toward my relative. I felt hopeless in helping him. I felt that only Heavenly Father and Jesus Christ fully knew his pain. Others have had similar suffering who can relate on a human level and can help. Yet only Jesus Christ understands my relative’s pain on an intimate and divine level (see Alma 7:11–13).

In general, this is for anyone who feels inadequate to help others through their pain and for those in pain.

If I could reach you, I would;
If you beseech me, I could.
If I could spare you the pain;
If you could share me your bane.

If I could free you from grief;
If you could see your belief.
If I could heal you I would;
If I could feel you, I could.

If I could save you this hour,
If I could have the right power.
If I could do all for you,
But I can’t do all for you.

Only Christ can heal your heart.
Only He can feel your part.
Only He can reach your soul.
Only he can make you whole.



For a poetical analysis, I created internal rhyme for the first two stanzas in addition to the end rhymes. The third stanza has save/have which look similar but have different vowel sounds. The next two have do on both lines. The first two lines in the final stanza have internal rhyme too. The internal rhyme emphasizes the verbs, the actions that the narrator can’t do, but what Jesus can do.

I employed anaphora, or repetition at the beginning of a phrase/sentence, for for most of the poem. I created a juxtaposition of if I could to but in line 12 and the fourth stanza initial repetition of only to emphasize Jesus’ power.

Looking at the first formant in vowels sound frequencies, I emphasized more high pitch vowels like /i/ in the beginning. The frequency changes to low vowels such as /u/ and /o/. The fourth stanza particularly has a rise and fall in the rhyming vowels. The /i/ in heel and feel change to mid-frequency vowel /a/ in heart and part. The final lines go from high frequency /i/ in he and reach to the low frequency of /o/ in soul and whole. The lower frequencies feel more soothing to my ear, so I wonder if I chose the final rhyme subconsciously to represent Jesus Christ’s healing power.

December 02, 2013

Jesus' Life from the Perspective of Pre-mortal Spirits

At this time Christ descends,
I bid farewell to Him, my Friend.
As we tenderly embrace,
The tears roll down my swollen face.

Father: 
I love thee, my dear Son;
Our divine purpose makes us one.

Christ: 
Father, I love thee too;
I’ll share thy word in all I do.

Spirits: 
Goodbye Brother!
Goodbye Friend!
We wish thee well
‘Til thy journey’s end.

Goodbye Brother!
Goodbye Friend!
We love thee; we love thee!
To thy journey tend.

When Christ claims His birthright,
With joy, we illuminate the night!
Through a heavenly window,
We watch our Brother learn and grow.
Our hearts rejoice and sing
As John the Baptist baptizes our King.

Narrator: 
By the touch of His hand
Many do learn to understand.
Through faith He heals the blind
And those without a peace of mind.

Spirits:
At this moment in time—
Precious, vital, sublime—
Our Savior is put to the test,
To do His very best.

He could give up,
Not drink from the bitter cup.
After all, it’s His choice.
Humbly softly speaks His voice:
I will fulfill.”

Those words, that conviction,
This story, non-fiction.
He bleeds from every pore—
Not just a drop or two, but much more,
Every sin, every pain—
For many a worlds’ reign.

Narrator: 
Within Gethsemane,
Jesus the Christ lets out this plea:

Christ: 
Dear Father, can it be
This bitter cup can pass from me?

Father: 
But this work must be done
By thee my perfect elder Son.

Christ: 
Not my will, but thy will
Which I do my best to fulfill.

Father: 
Yes, my Son, yes that is right.
Thou canst do it; Thou art the Light.

Narrator:
 Upon His back lies our sin;
 He suffers so that we may win.
 No one can cry to sleep.
 Heavenly Father and Mother weep.

Pilate: 
King of Kings is the news;
Art thou then the king of the Jews?

Narrator: 
This reply from the Lamb:
Three Crosses

Christ: 
Thou sayest that a king I am.
I was born to this end
To bear of the truth to all men.

Narrator: 
“Crucify him!” they cheer.
No! Not my elder Brother dear!
They spit out such mean scorns.
They press on His head a crown of thorns.
How can they disdain
A love so clear, so great, so plain?
Yet I hear past their lies
Their spirits howling painful cries.
The Roman soldiers nail
Christ to the cross who paid their bail.

Christ: 
Dear Father, please forgive them
For they know not that they condemn.
I send my spirit into thy hands.

Father: 
Thou hast obeyed all my commands.
Now my heart extends to thee
In gratitude eternally!

Spirits:
In our hearts we agree,
Dear Savior, we thank thee!

Narrator:
The earth shudders.
Someone utters,
“Truly this was the Son of God.”

His body is not yet risen,
Mary at Tomb
He visits departed spirits in prison.

Mary Magdalene finds the empty tomb
And her heart fills with gloom.
But the risen Lord comes to Mary
For a short time to tarry.

We now know--
We are no longer bound to death.
We will have our second breath.
So begins a new story,
When he returns in full glory.